why insist that every word be planned exactly, no mistakes or extra 'and's or 'the's and that every single sentence has a point and punches the reader right in the goddamn face and delivers powerful messages that make the weak pee themselves in sheer awe of the writer's obvious genius and raw artistic introspective talent? why struggle for hours ( Read more... )

Day 28 - Someone that changed your life

it's always, always hard to remember, in the bleak moments of utter self-loathing when you're overcome with the bone clenching, gut deep sadness that spreads through the limbs like phantoms until you are completely at one with melancholy, until you can feel everything move all at once and you are left with the ( Read more... )

"I wish there was some sort of device that could record a T.V. show as it was playing, so that it could stay locked inside the T.V.'s database so you could watch it again later."

"...You mean like, a TiVo?"

"Wait, so it exists?"

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what good is a journal if i'm too afraid of sounding remotely close to whiny?

man, i even want to delete that sentence.

Day 13 - Someone you wish could forgive you

i don't think there's anybody upset with me, that i know of, but i'll take the antagonist approach and say that grudges always harm both parties.

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"well, i always assumed that you knew things already, so we never bothered to talk to you about it. i assumed with your vast experience--"

oh my god, i ( Read more... )